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|I don't know what to do. Feel free to laugh, though. When it's not destructive or dangerous, it can be very funny. However, I am, for obvious reasons, scared about the fact that I've been so deeply interacting with the world, while asleep.|
I did sleepwalk as a child. I would wander around the house, sometimes go sleep in my sister's bed. I'd wake up in odd places. But, otherwise, it wasn't terrible. As an adult, it happened occasionally. I am told by others, though, that I am extremely coherent in my sleep. I am a programmer for a living, and I have programmed in my sleep (good code, though, and I did maintain my naming and code-cleanliness standards). I've answered the phone and had regular phone calls. You learn about this the next day, when someone says they called you at a specific time, and you know you were asleep. Alarms have always been useless to me, because I've disabled even very complicated alarm clocks, in my sleep.
When I was a much younger adult, I had something pretty bad happen to me. Due to this, and an incident of nearly being murdered as a child, at night, EVERYONE knows never to try to wake me up. I wake up swinging, literally. The few dumb enough to try are always mad at me the next day, usually with a black eye. I don't look glassy nor asleep. I just look very angry.
Now, I was born with a condition that requires medication. Just a pain medication, not one of those new anti-depressants. For over five years, I've been taking the medication, and, in this time period, I did not sleepwalk at all. Hey, bonus side-effect! Due to some insurance issues, I have not been taking the medication for two months. Sleepwalking didn't even enter my mind, as something that would return, until it did. I'm a bit freaked out. I have had to perform an analysis of my behavior every morning.
My partner and I first found out that I was doing this, when he let me know one morning that some processes on the server, that I'd set up the night before, were done. A little worried, I told him that I did not set these to run. Now, of course, we both get concerned, because there could be a virus on the network. We do a full trace of how the processes got there and ran, and we find that a human, using my computer, did, in fact, set these to run, well after I'd gone to bed. Further analysis of my computer usage showed that I was looking at music videos for almost the whole night.
Sleep-Warcraft. When I signed off a few days prior, I had almost no accepted quests. When I signed on after an episode, I found I had a TON of accepted quests. I was also in an entirely different city than that in which I signed off. And I think I ran a dungeon.
Sleep-messaging. Found I'd sent a lot of perfectly coherent messages to friends.
Sleep-website posting. I didn't do anything naughty or awful. I just did it in my sleep.
Sleep-programming. I am making “I could do that in my sleep” very literal. I've written some complex programs, and have no memory of doing it.
Sleep-YouTubing. My tastes did not seem to change. But yeah, I've been extensively YouTubing in my sleep.
Sleep-drinking. This, and the fact that I'm communicating with friends, is at the top of the list of “horrifying” behavior. I don't drink much. I'm a lightweight. I couldn't drink at all while taking the medication, so I wasn't really into that. However, we began to find empty bottles of really hard liquor (we do have periods wherein we have a lot of dinner parties, so we have a lot of half-bottles of different things), hidden. The hiding behavior does make sense, because I grew up in a very strict, religious home, and alcohol was considered sinful. I even polished off half a bottle of vodka. The BIG bottle. It explains why, several times, I've woke, feeling very dizzy and dehydrated. What scares me about this is that, in my sleep, I may have no control. What if I give myself alcohol poisoning, or what if I vomit and aspirate it?
I AM thankful that I had an episode today. I woke up five hours after my two alarms were set to go off (and I apparently disabled both), with an e-mail from my partner, from work. He was letting me know that, when I get up, to go get one of the dogs from his office (she likes it in there). When I told him that I just woke up, he was stunned. He'd spoken to me on the phone 2 hours prior, and I sounded perfectly fine. He always thought he'd be able to tell. Now he knows it's not that simple.
I have five dogs and my partner. I'm worried I might hurt one of them. Or what if I get violent towards my partner in my sleep? He's thankfully 3 times my size. But still.
Locking things or setting up barriers won't work. Anything I can do while awake, I can do while asleep.